Why Did You Disappear?

March 4th, 2019

About a year ago, I had lost someone dearly close to me. He had been there from the day I was born. Just out of no where he kind of vanished from my life. Today I still don’t understand. Am I a disappointment in your life? Are you ashamed of who I have become? Why’d you disappear?

April 2nd, 2018 changed your life, as it changed mine too. You lost a parent and I know how hard it hit you. I wanted to be there for you, but you didn’t allow me to. That day, I lost a parent too. But, my parent is still here on this planet called Earth. You are still here. Why did you disappear?

I cry at times when I see or hear about a father and his daughter. I’ve isolated myself from the world as well. You had always been there for me no matter what.. I called you on Fathers Day to tell you I loved you, I got no answer or returned call. My birthday was February 22nd, and I didn’t hear from my kids, and I didn’t hear from you. Why did you disappear?

I hear or see Fathers and Daughters all the time and I become in a foggy haze. I even went so far as isolation. I just needed you so badly. I know you have a family, with your wife and two young kids. But what about me and your son, we are your kids too. The only thing I had ever wanted was my relationship with you. Why did you disappear?

I worry about your health, and I worry I’ll be too late. I just want to see you again. I want you to know I care and I love you, Dad. I want you in my life, I beg for it everyday. I always want to call you, but honestly if you answered I wouldn’t know what to say… Why did you disappear?

My kids want their grandpa too, they ask about you constantly. Don’t you want to see them grow? Your first born grandson wants to be a hunter like his papa. Your granddaughter wants you to hear her sing, as she knows that you love to sing too. Dad, Why did you disappear?

If you get this message and want to reach out, have someone message me and I will be there to build our relationship again. I’ll always be Daddy’s girl. Just remember to let me know the place and when.. I love you Dad. I want to know why did you disappear?

Amber…

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