I don’t understand these phases of time where I don’t continue on writing. I just don’t feel it, have I lost my magic. Oh, the thought is just frightening. It’s 3am and I’m partially faded. This World even colder than before. I know others are up wondering if there is hope for our world anymore? … Continue reading It’s Been Awhile
I sit on the edge of the mountain side and finally exhale.. Instantly my mind is drowning with thoughts of you. It gets harder for me to breathe. You said my light dims slowly with every second of the day. I not for one second doubted you, I can feel it diminishing as I inhale … Continue reading July 31st, 2020
July 4th, 2020 Let’s get lost boy. Just you and I. We can explore the earth’s atmosphere. Lay in a meadow, watch stars fly through the sky. A secret hideaway. Not a soul knows where we are. You get me higher than any drug. You’re my shining star. Like the prince charming you are, you … Continue reading Let’s Get Lost
June 27th, 2020 Dark disastrous clouds form. Bringing him not only Darkness but negativity and greed. The black clouds over take the true beauty of this world. The world becomes so ugly. Just like that on a downward slope we go true colors of people begin to show. The active World suddenly goes into quarantine … Continue reading Hidden Beauty
June 17th, 2020 STOP crying. I’m not as stupid as I seem. Everyone but me will believe your lies. I see straight through you, from your tears to your screams. So fake, its unbearable. It unfolds, fake flowing in your eyes. You repeat that you’re sorry I have to go. Who do you think I … Continue reading I’m Sorry
May 5th, 2020 I’m so overwhelmed. I feel this ride needs to come to a halt. The negative energy inside of me keeps processing. It’s in control and its my fault. Two days alone while my parents go out of state. I was alone and had no hope. For those two days, all I did … Continue reading The Ride Stopped
March 5th, 2020 I missed session four, but patiently I have been waiting and the day finally arrives. I’ve been so eager to speak with my therapist during session number five. I had a plan and explained my outline along with my goals. I’ve only taken baby steps. I don’t want to go overboard. She … Continue reading Oh My, Therapy Session Five
March 4th, 2020 Oh the lack of communication on my end. I misunderstood my next appointments date. With that being said, Therapy Session five will be the best.
February 11th, 2020 Another appointment with my therapist, and I feel like someone finally understands me. She asked me to explain my pain, as I did as she asked both eyes of hers and mine had tears forming. Her input on my situation had me dumbfounded. Why didn’t I ever understand before? The way she … Continue reading Therapy Session Three
February 6th, 2020 Silently, I count how many days I have til my life will end.. I’m a daughter, a mother, a lover, and a friend. How did things get so disastrous in just an instant? I pretend on most days I am so happy, but I have those days when I just can’t. I … Continue reading Trapped in my Head, Sorting through my sorrows.