March 2nd, 2021 Oh my has one year flown by. I am now sitting here finally at therapy session six. I've neglected my health in more than one way during this pandemic. Hoping its all something I can fix. My most favorite therapist from last year is seeing face to face, but seeing her this … Continue reading Therapy Session Six →

Jan 28th, 2021 Laying cold on the cement ground, I awoke and there you were to save me... I don't remember much of minutes before. I do remember patiently waiting on you to return with chocolate milk and cookies you were baking. You mentioned the chocolate milk had to be home made. I was so … Continue reading Insist →

DECEMBER 5TH, 2020, . These noisy city streets full of people can often appear chaotic, but lately it has gone unnoticed by me as my thoughts begin to drift and my mind becomes increasingly fixated on the chaos within. The hurt can be so overwhelming, to the point that I've nearly taken my own life … Continue reading Shame →

Oct. 26th, 2020 As the sun sets, I can feel myself start to dim as well. Soon the sun and I will be invisible. Come nightfall, families will be kissing their offspring goodnight. Meanwhile I'm caught numbing my pain with chemicals, only to find that nothing has changed... and the hurt is still there. I … Continue reading Changing Sun Sets →

I don't understand these phases of time where I don't continue on writing. I just don't feel it, have I lost my magic. Oh, the thought is just frightening. It's 3am and I'm partially faded. This World even colder than before. I know others are up wondering if there is hope for our world anymore? … Continue reading It’s Been Awhile →

I sit on the edge of the mountain side and finally exhale.. Instantly my mind is drowning with thoughts of you. It gets harder for me to breathe. You said my light dims slowly with every second of the day. I not for one second doubted you. Every breathe I breathe vanishes a part of … Continue reading July 31st, 2020 →

July 4th, 2020 Let's get lost boy. Just you and I. We can explore the earth's atmosphere. Lay in a meadow, watch stars fly through the sky. A secret hideaway. Not a soul knows where we are. You get me higher than any drug. You're my shining star. Like the prince charming you are, you … Continue reading Let’s Get Lost →

June 27th, 2020 Dark disastrous clouds form. Bringing him not only darkness but negativity and greed. The black clouds over take the true beauty of this world. This world is not what it could be. Just like that on a downward slope we go, true colors of people begin to show. The active world suddenly … Continue reading Hidden Beauty →

June 17th, 2020 STOP crying. I'm not as stupid as I seem. Everyone but me will believe your lies. I see straight through you, from your tears to your screams. So fake, its unbearable. It unfolds, fake flowing in your eyes. You repeat that you're sorry I have to go. Who do you think I … Continue reading I’m Sorry →

May 5th, 2020 I'm so overwhelmed. I feel this ride needs to come to a halt. The negative energy inside of me keeps processing. It's in control and its my fault. Two days alone while my parents go out of state. I was alone and had no hope. For those two days, all I did … Continue reading The Ride Stopped →