Jan 28th, 2021 Laying cold on the cement ground, I awoke and there you were to save me... I don't remember much of minutes before. I do remember patiently waiting on you to return with chocolate milk and cookies you were baking. You mentioned the chocolate milk had to be home made. I was so … Continue reading Insist →

DECEMBER 5TH, 2020 In a city of noise, the streets full of people and chaos. For some reason the only chaos I see is myself. I hurt so badly that I've almost taken my life. The burden and dark times... I could barely sleep at night.. I was silently crying for help. Days turn to … Continue reading Shame →

Oct. 26th, 2020 As the sun sets, I can feel myself start to dim as well. Soon the sun and I will be invisible. Come nightfall, families will be kissing their offspring goodnight. Meanwhile I'm caught numbing my pain with chemicals, only to find that nothing has changed... and the hurt is still there. I … Continue reading Changing Sun Sets →

I don't understand these phases of time where I don't continue on writing. I just don't feel it, have I lost my magic. Oh, the thought is just frightening. It's 3am and I'm partially faded. This World even colder than before. I know others are up wondering if there is hope for our world anymore? … Continue reading It’s Been Awhile →

I sit on the edge of the mountain side and finally exhale.. Instantly my mind is drowning with thoughts of you. It gets harder for me to breathe. You said my light dims slowly with every second of the day. I not for one second doubted you. Every breathe I breathe vanishes a part of … Continue reading July 31st, 2020 →

July 4th, 2020 Let's get lost boy. Just you and I. We can explore the earth's atmosphere. Lay in a meadow, watch stars fly through the sky. A secret hideaway. Not a soul knows where we are. You get me higher than any drug. You're my shining star. Like the prince charming you are, you … Continue reading Let’s Get Lost →

June 27th, 2020 Dark disastrous clouds form. Bringing him not only darkness but negativity and greed. The black clouds over take the true beauty of this world. This world is not what it could be. Just like that on a downward slope we go, true colors of people begin to show. The active world suddenly … Continue reading Hidden Beauty →

June 17th, 2020 STOP crying. I'm not as stupid as I seem. Everyone but me will believe your lies. I see straight through you, from your tears to your screams. So fake, its unbearable. It unfolds, fake flowing in your eyes. You repeat that you're sorry I have to go. Who do you think I … Continue reading I’m Sorry →

May 5th, 2020 I'm so overwhelmed. I feel this ride needs to come to a halt. The negative energy inside of me keeps processing. It's in control and its my fault. Two days alone while my parents go out of state. I was alone and had no hope. For those two days, all I did … Continue reading The Ride Stopped →

March 5th, 2020 I missed session four, but patiently I have been waiting and the day finally arrives. I’ve been so eager to speak with my therapist during session number five. I had a plan and explained my outline along with my goals. I’ve only taken baby steps. I don’t want to go overboard. She … Continue reading Oh My, Therapy Session Five →